I have a migraine again. I rarely get them these days, and I have had 2 now in the span of a week. It drains me.
This pandemic just is endless. The days seem to just fly by and yet nothing ever changes.
And our financial situation keeps getting worse and worse and now I’m at the freaked out stage where I’m frantically trying to make money…Trying not to be too stressed. And the only reason I think I’m not is that I’m on anti-anxiety meds already.
I still KNOW that we will get through this. I KNOW this. But it sure is hard while living through the rough patches.
I also know that others have it way worse and at least we are still healthy and with a roof over our heads, etc etc. But right now I can only focus on trying to do whatever I can to keep myself together and focus all my energy on my business and getting it making money. I don’t know how long this is going to take, but I have been working endlessly on it.
Every waking hour that I can, I am working on my website. It’s coming along so well! I am very proud of all that I’ve gotten done on it! And I just wish I could share with more people! I KNOW I can help so many people! If only I can just make myself known to the right people that need me and can afford to pay me.
It’ll happen…but it’s just taking so damned long. And time just keeps on slipping away and I feel like life is just whizzing by. I’m already 50. I’m probably over halfway through with my life! I know I still have many years, but I want to get this to the point of being successful so I can actually ENJOY my life before my body starts to break down!! And there is SO MUCH I have never been able to do with my kids and my husband that I still want to do…like travel. And live somewhere pretty. In a nice house.
I’m just depressed so much these days. I have to focus hard on working on my website to keep myself from sinking too deeply into depression. It works for a time, luckily. It’s situational depression, I’m pretty sure. And if we can just get ourselves out of this awful mess, I’ll be fine again.
*SIGH* Ok, back to work.