simplifying life

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i have no idea how to do this. really, i don’t. i can’t, or i won’t or something, i don’t know…i just seem to be incapable of it. *sigh* and right now i’m really desiring to figure it out.

i always have tons of projects i’m working on but right now i actually am unhappy with how much i’m involved in. i need to figure out how to drop something but i really don’t know what or how!

one thing that’s stressing me out is tyren’s teeth. once we get that whole thing sorted out, my life will be less stressful. right now i’m still working on brushing him several times a day, and tonight i got him mouth wash. got an idea from a friend to paint it on the bad spots w/a Qtip…since he’s too young to swish without swallowing. hope it helps. his teeth don’t look good…but the dvd pinatta’s view seems to be helping him start to get used to the idea of the dentist’s office not being the scariest place on earth. its seriously an awesome movie!

then we are planning to play dentist…only done it like once so far because i keep forgetting! but that’s on my mental list of things to do this weekend…get going on playing that so that he can start getting even more comfortable with the dentist idea. hopefully that will enable us to get a second opinion on his teeth finally. what i’m really hoping is that someone will tell me that its not as bad as it looks and that it can be treated in short visits so that he doesn’t have to go under general anesthesia, which scares the crap outta me. i won’t know til i can get tyren to not freak out at the new dentist’s office. i may be dreaming, it may be unavoidable, but i can dream, can’t i? i need to read up on some of the info i read about at that mentions recalcifying teeth and healing cavities and such.

so for now we’re just trying to buy some time to sort things out…i’m just trying to get his teeth to not get worse basically.

anyway, anytime i start thinking about this i get a knot in my stomach, so i’m going to change the subject now.

back to simplifying…i want to be done with the storyland project, but it seems it might take longer and a lot more work than expected. *sigh* i am all for helping them out, i just shouldn’t have taken the project on in the first place…wouldn’t ya know it, it was MY idea! but i don’t want to drop it, i really don’t. i really want to make that hansel/gretel exhibit stunning! i really do! this saturday we’re getting the sand delivered and spread! woohoo! its a start! next i think i need to find someone to replace the fence. dad looked at it with me last week and said it would be better to just replace the whole thing. i want to get someone that knows what they are doing…so hopefully i can get the fence donated and someone to donate their time to install it. i have someone in mind to ask…we’ll see what he says.

then there’s babyfest. its that time of year again. i really do like organizing and running babyfest but it really does take up my whole life for the couple of months prior to it. and i’m really dragging my feet in getting into it this year. i need to get my butt in gear. i did finally get the website updated. i think. hopefully i didn’t miss anything.

then there’s the homeschool resource center. that’s actually where i would like my focus to be right now. and the discovery center. i met with the director of TDC today and i’m helping them find fun activities to supplement their program…i’m really looking forward to working on it! but once again…more things for me to do. and i cannot even seem to take care of my house and buy groceries!

i’m so A.D.D. …i heard somewhere that ADD’rs have a hard time keeping their attention on the mundane day-to-day stuff…but are good at focusing on the new. that’s SO me. but then there’s another thing about me and that is that i don’t like to drop things once i’ve committed to them. it seriously makes me ill to do that. one of the hardest things for me…hence the predicament i’m in with too many projects. the good news is that i am NOT NOT NOT taking on any new projects! i’m NOT!!! nononononononononoooooooo. ok well just the activities for TDC, but nothing else, i tell ya!!

gawd i wish my son would go to sleep. he’s still up watching a maizy movie. ugh. i need to work on him. i’m really not accomplishing anything right now so i might as well work harder and getting him to sleep. *sigh*

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