Grasping at Clouds

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Do you ever feel like no matter what you do, you’re just grasping at clouds? Like you are trying and trying and trying to get something done, but no matter what you do, it just keeps slipping between your fingers?

Yeah. One of those days here. Weeks even. Months? I keep feeling like I’m taking 2 steps forward and 3 steps back.

I can’t seem to get my brain in focus today to get the stuff done that I want to get done. So I thought I’d take a break and blog a bit and see if I can clear my head. I’m not on my ADHD meds today so that definitely has something to do with it. But I had physical therapy today halfway through the day and I don’t like to take them on these days. It feels like a waste. If I take them before I go, I will get interrupted and have to leave while I’m in the middle of a roll (and that is SO HARD to get started again!) And if I wait until I get back to take them, it’s really too late in the day at that point.

Ah well. So I’m trying to work unmedicated today. It’s not really that big of a difference since I am on a new med (Ritalin wasn’t really working for me so I asked to try Adderall) and it’s on the very lowest dose and not really helping me yet either. But it is better than nothing.

Anyway, I do feel like in general that I’m making great progress on Tina’s Learning Adventures lately. I’ve been busting my ass, working endless hours on it. But it still isn’t bringing in any money. Not even paying for itself yet.

But I’m NOT giving up! I think about all those authors and actors and singers (etc…) that say that if you’re not being told “no” you’re not trying hard enough. Or however the saying goes. You know, the thing about how many publishers rejected JK Rowling before she was finally picked up. That sort of thing.

I KNOW that what I have to offer is amazing and that I can help so many homeschoolers. I already have! A LOT. And what I have created and am creating on my site now is the next level and can do so much more…and could actually help our family out financially as well. It’s time.

I just have to keep on keepin’ on. It’ll happen. Eventually. I’m not giving up. I KNOW I can make this work and it’ll be AMAZING. Someday. I just hope that someday is before our tax refund runs out.

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