Another day of BLEH

It’s one of those days where I can’t seem to get motivated to start and I just feel like BLEH. Which is strange because at the same time I still feel really fired up about my project and how much progress I’ve made on it lately! And I truly want to get working on it. But for some reason I have had SUCH a hard time getting moving today.

I was going to say “this morning”…but then glanced at the clock and it’s after 1:30pm!!

I guess it’s just one of those days….

Because honestly, things have been going fairly well lately…Tyr has been cooperating with homeschooling, I’ve been making some progress with my biz project (though, never as much as I’d like. but that will probably always be the case), my parents are doing better, my brother and his wife are doing better in NY, we are caught up on bills (though that doesn’t mean we are financially stable, and money is always an issue…but we are no longer behind and that’s HUGE! I will take the good stuff when it happens!)….

My tooth still needs work but it’s tolerable currently and will be looked at again soon. My shoulder is awful but I have a telephone appt with my doctor in about an hour and will be talking to her about getting physical therapy to remedy that…

The weather has been just gorgeous lately! I have the windows thrown open and fresh air and sunshine streaming in right now!

I’m making great progress on my temperature blanket…

Had a nice long weekend (due to Presidents Day) with my family, including a visit with my parents on Valentine’s Day:

So why the hell am I so BLEH today??? Hell if I know! I guess it’s just a Monday thing. Although it’s actually Tuesday because of the holiday…but a beginning of a week thing.

And a will-this-pandemic-ever-end thing.

And a will-we-ever-be-financially-stable-to-the-point-of-being-able-to-have-and-do-the-things-we-want? thing. I truly believe we will. I really and truly do. And I am working very hard towards this. I never ever give up.

I am finally at a point where Tyren is FINALLY doing well with his learning and I can take large chunks of my day to focus on my business and I am finally GETTING SOMEWHERE. And it FEELS SO GOOD! But it is a constant battle with this brain that doesn’t work quite right. And all these damned squirrels.

Just this morning I got another idea that temporarily sidetracked me…but I locked that squirrel up and told it to shut the hell up and I’ll get back to it later. I am already working on something. The idea is a good one and maybe it could help us, but I am DETERMINED to make this project I’m currently working on already finally pan out! And I am NOT NOT NOT going to get sidetracked!!

And, checking my digital ideas notebook…whaddayaknow? I already have notes on that VERY SAME IDEA that I came up with this morning…from years ago! I’ve been thinking on it for awhile obviously…so I’ll just add what I thought of today…and then LET IT GO (for now)…and get back to the project at hand!! Because what I am working on right now is VERY worthwhile and very doable and has very good potential! And I am not going to let myself get off track and squirrel off into other things again like I have for about 2 decades now!!

The ADHD meds that I am on now seem to be helping some…I can’t tell if they are helping a lot or not, but they do seem to be helping some and I feel like I can focus a bit more now and I am going to see where this takes me!